Many times, even without us knowing, we expect the people around us to be perfect. We do not allow people to show their attitude, their temper, their characteristics, their thoughts or even their true self because they will be label as CHILDISH or IMMATURE.

Many times, we've forgotten how others have mercifully forgiven us and accept the imperfection of ours. Just like the servant in the parable that Jesus taught, when he is forgiven of a debt of millions, he has forgotten about it and set his heart to put the person who owed him hundred to jail.

Many times, people tend to think the mistakes they made are of the past and thus the forgiveness does not count, or even the accepting of this imperfection is not counted as done before, because it happens long ago. Accepting of imperfection is easily forgotten by people who received it but hard to forget for people who accept.

Many times, it takes a lot of pain to know how much God has actually accepted the imperfect us but not the people around us. It's time like this that you know the ABBA FATHER really loves us like no other people in this world does.

Many times, many things are not like what many people seen it as.

I'm just glad that even if the whole world forsake the imperfect me, i still have God to cling on to.

"Luke 17:32 Remember Lot's Wife"

There is this little scar in my heart that i have hidden from everybody, sometimes i even hide it from myself. Once in a while i'll ponder about it, does he still remember that i existed on this world or have i been completely forgotten by him? How could he walked out of a family like this?

I love being alone in my room in the middle of the night, thinking and pondering about the past or rather things that has already happen. Somehow without me knowing, i've been pulled and left behind while others have already moved ahead of me.

Perhaps i love to 钻牛角尖(Zuan Niu Jiao Jian) too much till the extend that i'm so hold back by the past and eventually leaving myself behind. At certain point of life i guess all of us will do this, or only happens to me?

When God speaks, he don't speak a lot, neither does he gives you 2 hours of lecture. He's always sweet and short, straight to the point. When he wants to smack you in order for you to move ahead, he does that gently and quickly too, no matter how hard it seems to move on.

Remember Lot's Wife, sweet and short. Stop holding to the past hurts or success, stop dwelling in them and live in them. I guess this is one of the simplest thing that everybody understand but few are able to keep away from it.

To move ahead and remove all the obstacles, you need to look ahead and keep taking one step all the time without allowing yourself to dwell on the past. If not, you'll eventually became a pillar of salt, remaining at the exact same spot waiting for time to bury you up.

God is more than good, no matter what lousy situation or transition i'm facing, he'll always be here speaking to me and telling me things that i needed. Sometimes, we need to be more than good to him too. Don't just ask God about us and our situation or life, why not ask yourself what about God?

Many are called, few are chosen. I believe God looks through EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING in the world before choosing where to place them, what calling to give them and how he should mould them in order for them to become better every single day.

Tonight, i really find myself being very selfish. He has given me wonderful promises, never ending love, grace and forgiveness over the silly stuff i did and the list goes on. I feel so ashamed that at times, all i knew was hiding in my comfort zone with my little scar thinking that is my whole world, ended up refusing to step out of the comfort zone.

It's time to stop hiding and dwelling on things that can't be change, time to move ahead and start thinking about things that i can still change before it's too late. This 3 words might mean nothing to you, but it'll be something i'll always remember.

Are you holding on to things that belongs to the past refusing to let go? Remember Lot's wife.

Thanks for replacing that little scar with your love, you're more than enough ABBA FATHER :)

Before i'm hit with busy-ness from work, let me do a proper update :)

On Monday, i went for my first job interview after which we headed down to Mushroom Pot for their Tea-Time Buffet. Please don't ever go and try, Sc and i had diaherra. after that :(





On Thursday after signing the employment letter, SC and I went to have a great dinner at Soup Restaurant. We're so in love with the food there, but the prices are a little too high for chickens, tofu and meats! Sorry, i'm only willing to pay high price for Japanese food!





Yesterday we finally fulfilled our crazy desire of eating steamboat at home, just 2 of us :) We went to Cold Storage to get some food before the chef wash the food and marinate the meat.





And i found another surprise on my bed that very night, i'm simply so in love with the BF, not because of the present but because of the gesture and thoughts. I found another Baby Eeyore on my bed and she's number 9! Sc brought her to accompany me through this week while he's out somewhere in some forest doing some training.





And without me knowing, the collection has grew to such a great one within this 21 months. I wonder how many will i have by the time we set up our own home :)

Tomorrow is my first day at work and it's not helping that SC is away training. But one thing i know, he's praying for me somewhere in Tekong. Now, i need to countdown to another 7 days before i get a teddy big hug from him again!

I've gotten a new job after quitting teaching on Friday. Honestly i really missed the noise in school and the naughty acts of the students. But well, life is all about moving forward and not not looking back and SIGH!

I'm officially employed as a perm stuff in XXX company, of course i have to pass the first 3 months of probation. I'm really blessed by God, this job was given to me without me looking for any at all.

You can guess it, i'm pretty excited about my first full time job, in fact i've been thinking about working since Monday after the interview. But before that, i need to burn a big hole in my pocket to purchase some office wear and things to use in office before i'm ready for work.

I can't wait for Monday to come, new environment, new position, new workplace friends, new job scopes. And of course finally a decent pay every month instead of surviving on miserable pennies.

Welcome me to the adult world, not forgetting the bills/study loans/insurance kind of burden that ADULT will have.

But i'm still very excited! Can you sense my excitement?